Tears of frustration and Tears of gratitude

Nothing in my medical education could have prepared me for the scene which is unfolding in my home country now. Indians had let down their guards early. Ever since the first wave was receding, people had stopped wearing masks, partying and travelling as if to make up the lost year, and the Indian government was busy ensuring their win in next election and gaining international friendships by donating vaccines.

My MBBS batchmates were tired of having worked hard over the extended 1st wave. They wanted to plan out an all girls get together. Here in UAE, We were already battling our second wave, and we had realized that the new variants were much more contagious. This time we were seeing entire families affected. I was constantly warning my friends but they were too busy and too overconfident too pay heed. “We have shown the world that India has done better than most developed nations” was a common rejoice on social media.

It didn’t take long for the cases to rise and for the last whole month India has seen the worst tsunami of covid cases. Every person you talk to has someone or more in the family affected. Hospitals are again full. No beds anywhere, and this time no medicines, no oxygen. People are dying in their homes. The crematoriums are full, and all i have in this moment is a heavy heart. There are so many messages of children who have lost their entire families in covid. Young and old who are just dying for lack of resources. There is complete collapse of the administrative framework.

Still a corner in my heart swells at the humanitarian gestures. Gurudwaras which are Sikh places of worship have converted their long halls where once langar were served into places where now you can get oxygen. “Oxygen langar”. Families are serving home made lunches to other families who are affected. People have converted their vans into ambulances. Donations from across the continents have started reaching.

Last week around this time, we were in a difficult state of mind. For the first time, India felt so far away. My mother in law had got fever and within next two- three days, father in law also got sick. While Mummy ji recovered soon, Papa’s situation was not improving. On the other side, my brother was alone in Gurgaon and started developing high grade fever. I immediately called my old boss and also a good friend in Delhi who runs a network of medical labs. She not only helped me identify where i could get the test done for him, but also helped arrange blood tests for my in-laws. However, For 2 days we tried in vain to get his PCR sample collected at home. The staff in pathology labs had already been reeling under workload and they had no one to sent home. They promised me that they will give the report within few hours, only if he could come and give sample. I had to get him tested, not because i was not sure of diagnosis, but because he had to produce the test report to get sick leave. On the 4th day, when his fever came down a little, I persuaded him to go and get tested. Due to those kind souls, i was able to get the report in time. Next day, his situation was worse. I needed to urgently get a medicine across to him. I called on one of my school friends, and he immediately helped me across. These are the times when i feel, the system might have collapsed but humanity still lives, and together we shall overcome.

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14 responses to “Tears of frustration and Tears of gratitude”

  1. This world will end when humanity dies. Hope all is well at your end with your family’s health now.


  2. Oh no! It must be so frustrating to be able to help and yet not help. My anaesthetist daughter was in a similar position when she was getting our second dose organised. Despite working in 5 hospitals, she couldn’t get an appointment for us because of the vaccine shortage and finally when she did manage it, she had to take us furtively as though we were criminals. What a shame. And that too in most of the hospitals she does charity work where on days she has earned less than what our driver does!

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  3. Trying times for all. Wish we had not become this easy going. Only humanity is saving us right now as the systems are under to much pressure.
    Deepika Sharma

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  4. Thank god, you have good friends who were able to help you amidst all this chaos. It’s really tiring time for everyone.

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  5. One can not help but cry. Praying for India and the world.


  6. What can I say to this.. hope we pass this phase soon.. do we learn? Can’t say anything on that..

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  7. Sending best wishes for your family. You are doing a remarkable job helping them from afar.

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  8. Hugs! It is a difficult time and yet it is a time of wonder because you realise that humanity is not dead and it resides right here in the common person, the next door neighbour, the friends and relatives and even strangers who have been going out of their way to help.

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  11. Hugs dear Ruchi, can understand it’s not easy to see family suffer, but glad you had some good friends who were so helpful. Times are difficult, and humanity is surely helping it sail smoothly. Reading about gurudwara’s and people providing tiffins and help to the needy are big blessings.

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  13. It is so difficult to see family members suffering and being helpless here. We also faced something similar when we had to get oxygen for an uncle in-law. It was heart-wrenching, to say the least.
    I do hope your family is better now

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I am a histopathologist based in UK. I find solace in my work, nature and books. My musings are my own personal beliefs.


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